Escape

Ryan and I just got back from a vacation.  We planned it looking for an escape.  An escape from the hard holiday season we just had, an escape from the feeling of always missing something, an escape from the hole that is always in our hearts and an escape to paradise.  However, our vacation was anything but an escape. 

I now realize that no matter where we travel to or how far we go, Ella is with us no matter where we are.  She is with us up in the clouds as we are souring high, she is with us as we are strolling the beach and watching a sunset, and she is with us as the waves crash on to the shore. 

Ella was with us as the bird flying through our pictures telling us that she was there with us on the beach.

She was with us in the sunsets that kissed the ocean.

She was with us in the sand as the waves crashed on the beach trying to erase her name.

There is no escaping this little girl.  She is with us and will always be a part of us.  She is always showing us that we don't have to look very far to know that she is there watching over us.  We can't escape the feelings that something is always missing, but we can embrace the idea that our angel is always close by.  We just have to watch for her.